We've got all the time in the world to get a grip on the fact that we don't last but right now I want to watch the tide roll in with my best friends

Its funny, the song title I chose for this post because i HATE all time low, I felt it was fitting for this post. Last night I was talking to andrew who is one of the few people I still talk to that I met freshman year, what is even weirder is that we never even went to school together yet he still remains in contact with me.  He said something about us seniors and how we aren't doing anything fun. and it actually hit me that I really am a senior. I am so busy, rushing through everything and trying to be finished to enjoy anything at all. Maybe its because so switching high schools so often that I never had "typical" high school life. Maybe its now that my high school only has 60 kids, no sports teams, no prom, no homecoming, none of that, but whatever it is I'm not sure how I feel about it all. High School has never been a place for me so I guess why should it start to be senior year? I dunno, but I don't like being unsure of my emotions.