quote of 11/29

'If you were happy every day of your life you wouldn't be human you'd be a gameshow host'

Also written as a memo in my crackberry like my pervious posts, I believe its from the movie heathers. So many quotes its insane..

i want to be the next bill gates...

Things to do before I die

1. Get my cosmotolgy liescene
2. Go on tour
3. Open a coffee shop acoustic venue
4. Open a boutique
5. Open a regular venue
6. Publish a book!
7. Have a record label (this seems more and more confusing)
8. Manage a band or more
9. Meet Tommy Lee!
10. Book shows
11. Get my piercing liescene
12. Read the entire bible
13. Get a meaningful tattoo
14. Learn to play an instrument or two
15. Skinny dip
16. Weigh 99 lbs again
17. Find that forever kind of love & have it be mutual
18. Start a clothing line
19. Open a salon.
20. Create an energy drink
21. Create a tour
22. This idea is too good to post anywhere, it was something me & someone who means too much to me thought up around 3 am one night when talking about our futures..
23. Meet macuauly culkin
24. Create a festival
25. Find a venture capatlist that will give me $$ for all of these wicked ideas..

I need to find what it is waiting out there for me..

since may i have...

+lost over 40 lbs.

+made friends at school (i've never done that at all my high schools)

+ got a job

+/ - quit the job

+ starting writing for an awesome magazine

+ have a great internship

+ gotten to interview a lot of amazing bands

++ go to interview the one band ive always wanted to interview (the devil wears prada)

- stayed single

+ not settled for any guy

+/- kissed two boys on record labels

+ lived in the moment

+ went to bamboozle

+ made a lot of new friends (sandra has to be one of my favorites!)

+ learned the metro system like the back of my hand

+ got my learners

+ got my photography published in a book

+ had my photography in three art galleries

+ drank a lot of coffee

+++ learned to control my anger

+ learned to do things for myself & not for other people

+ started a band!

+ mailed a secret to post secret

We've got all the time in the world to get a grip on the fact that we don't last but right now I want to watch the tide roll in with my best friends

Its funny, the song title I chose for this post because i HATE all time low, I felt it was fitting for this post. Last night I was talking to andrew who is one of the few people I still talk to that I met freshman year, what is even weirder is that we never even went to school together yet he still remains in contact with me.  He said something about us seniors and how we aren't doing anything fun. and it actually hit me that I really am a senior. I am so busy, rushing through everything and trying to be finished to enjoy anything at all. Maybe its because so switching high schools so often that I never had "typical" high school life. Maybe its now that my high school only has 60 kids, no sports teams, no prom, no homecoming, none of that, but whatever it is I'm not sure how I feel about it all. High School has never been a place for me so I guess why should it start to be senior year? I dunno, but I don't like being unsure of my emotions. 

There's no more love, trust respect or loyalty. Product of my surroundings

More and more each day I realize how fake everyone around me is, not only the teenagers in my neighborhood but their parents are just as  I can't wait to get the fuck out of Germantown. 366 days & I will be 18 and out of this fucking place for good, but hopefully before then, like this summer.  

I start my internship on friday, im scared but excited. 

first post

This has been a week of Firsts, and I am glad it is almost over. Starting my new school, is a lot and I am still adjusting. I have met a chill group of people, a lot quicker than I ever did a Clarksburg, and Seneca was all of the same people I had known since kindergarden so I didn't have to worry about meeting new people. I have already missed my first day of school, which I am really mad at, I was actually really sick, but I wish I wasn't. Missing School is the reason I got sent to this one. I am trying actually show up this year. I've realized I HAVE matured a lot, and going to this school I think will just help that even more.

What I like about this School:

1. Open Lunch
2. TWO winter breaks
3. Metro access
4. having an internship (I have my fingers crossed I get the one I want)
5. Lots of field trips
6. Trips to mexico and to Arizona
7. less classes, longer time
8. that is was once an old house (I think its pretty)
9. I can bring my laptop

What I dislike about this school:

1. It being far away
2. school not ending until 3:30
3. having middle schoolers in my ceramic's class
4. having to share a building with middle schoolers
5. having all of my classes in the basement
6. each minute you are late you stay after a minute (waste of time)
7. instead of detention of suspension you get billed for your mistakes
8. some kid who things he's a fire fighter (I've never disliked someone so quickly)
9. That I got assigned a six page paper my first day
10. They never gave me a printed scheldue they just told me my classes, how am I supposed to remember all of that

I guess that is all for now and I should go start on my homework.